Wowzers

Holy hell. I haven't been on here in like a yearish...aaaand it literally just took me 20 minutes to figure out how to even write a new blog. IIIII'm dumb.

Well. It's 2010. The US hasn't hit depression yet. I haven't bought any parakeets. And I'm a mooooving on. I'm still about 1 1/2 to 2 years from graduating. So. On paper it looks like I've done a whole lotta nothing since the last little blog post.

So. Still working the shitty retail job. And still working on school. But I have a little more direction now. Volunteering and convincing myself that I'm making some kind of difference seems to be more of my passion than interpreting ever was, but I'm still going to finish up that degree and along with it work of getting a degree in business management with a certificate in nonprofit management. woot-toda mutta fuggin-woot.

Hind sight is 20/20 dude. I've learned in the last year, no matter how much you love someone, sometimes it's just not meant to be. Unfortunately life can get in the way, and scars never fade and are often too easily reopened. Time does help all wounds though. Even the ones in your heart. Time has done it's job and i can finally say I'm moving on. Good times. Bad times. They all helped me get here. Made me stronger. A wee bit smarter. A lot more cautious. And for that a little piece of my heart will always be there for him.

Now, on a happier, related subject, I've met someone new. And I'm pretty head over heels. It makes me gag how high school I am for this guy. Like butterflies and tummy tinglies. Can't get enough. Smile at inappropriate times. Those kind of puke-ish things. My face hurts from smiling everytime we're together.

To wrap it up:

My friends, as always, are what keep me sane. So thankful for them. My dog, as always, is my perfect little ball of sunshine. I still want some damn parakeets. Oh! And moving back out next weekeeeeend. Yay adulthood, again, and getting un-fat, again.

:) smiles for songs that make me feel 16 years old again. (holy shit that was almost 8 years ago)

You have a way of moving me,
A force of nature, your energy,
It comes naturally, it comes naturally

And it takes my breath away
What you do, so naturally

You are the thunder and I am the lightning,
And I love the way you know who you are,
And to me it's exciting,
When you know it's meant to be,
Everything comes naturally,
It comes naturally,
When you're with me baby,
Everything comes naturally,
It comes naturally

See. SO high school. But you can get over it, right?

Goon Dight.

Cha-cha-changes

2009, I have a feeling, will be a year I remember. One of those years you look back on and vividly remember sounds, smells, feelings.

So many big things will be changing.

Most obvious, a new president is coming in, lets keep our fingers crossed that we don't go into a depression.

Then more personally, my Bill is off to Hawaii for the next three and a half years. We decided to call it quitzies for now because of the distance. But he's been my other half through thick and thin the last 3 years...I just can't imagine life without him, but I guess I'm going to have to suck it up and deal with it because it's not like I can just pack up and move to Hawaii.

Also this coming May the lease on Lauren and I's apartment will be up. That will conclude my 1st year of living on "my own." I'll be moving into Sarah'S house with her and her three dogs after that while her husband, Dan, is overseas. I'm getting into my last year and a half of school...finally. But I may continue at Wright State to get my four year interpreting degree...we'll see how burnt out on school I am.

And I think I might buy a couple of Parakeets...I can't believe I'm saying it but I miss my stupid bird Tobias.

end.

So...

about how things are going....on paper everything looks great. I'm going to college. Classes are going well enough, but they're stressing me the hell out. I don't know if this is really what I want to do with my life. It's nuts. I just, guh. I get headaches thinking about it. There's not enough time in the day between work, school, homework, and social things. I could cut out the social things, but I would then officially go insane. I need to write a paper. I have a midterm tomorrow. I put everything off because I'm dumb, then I have freak out moments such as this. I am caught up on my reading for Into to Interpreting though, so I don't completley suck at life. I'm tired. I'm sick of my job. I hate getting up at 8 every day. I hate having work before class. I hate not being able to sleep when I need to. I need a break; a break from school, work, parents, life in general. Just a get away from the everyday stresses. All I want to worry about over my break is fluffing my pillow and who Tila is going to eliminate next on "A shot at love." (Which is a totally addicting show, I'm ashamed to say.) Me and Henry can lay around all day and sleep. All the things I have to look forward to in the umcoming months will just exhaust me more. Breaking Benjamin Concert=Fun but tiring. Dane Cook live= fun but tiring. 21 birthday=fun but for a short time life stopping because of the hung over-ness I'm sure to experience. Once again...if my dumbass would just plan ahead and not get little to no sleep every night and not put shit off until the last minute my life would run a lot smoother.Oh well. Enough venting.

Good things in my life are, of course, Henry, my friends, as always, are keeping me sane(except for one instance, but I'm better off I suppose, in the long run it would only cause drama I'm sure,) my boyfriend is my rock.

And on a side note, I quote a song:

"When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry cause
Everything's gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you
You you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you"